Tuesday, September 29, 2009

o yeah bebeh

aku ni:
  • 5 hari tak mkn nasi,msti mnggagau la aku.
  • anak last,anak sorg pompuan.dlm erti kata laen.MANJE. * statement gua mahal ni*
  • allergic pada habuk.nanti naek rashes2.grr.
  • gilebabipatriotik dkat malaysia dan bdr bangi tercinta.
  • idop aku jadi seba tak kene kalao tak minum milo sehari.

tapi tulah boleh plak aku nk gi study kt egypt.EGYPT! egypt yang:
  • msti susah nk carik nasi.yg ade,roti roti roti roti..............
  • JAUHGILEBABI WEH.dalam peta pon lbeyh sejengkal -_-"
  • byk habuk.sgt berhabuk.debu2.habuk sane sini.
  • BUKAN MALAYSIA YG PENTING.
  • takde milo.tak de jual,LANGSUNG.gileeeee..............

tapi tu lah dia.jalan yg aku pilih.its not about egypt pon..aku tolak tepi semua tu sebab,MEDICINE.aku mmg da lama nk uat kos ni,n skrg aku dpt pluang tu..syukur alhamdulillah.takkan aku nk tolak kan? ni lah cita2 aku..insyaAllah..lpas ni jadi kerjaya plak.hee..arwah mama pon mmg dari dulu nk tgk aku jadi doktor.so,COOL gk kn egypt nih? haha.

aku blom sampai egypt lagi da ckp mcm ni.ceh.

ESOK MALAM FLIGHT! ini malam terakhir ku di Malaysia utk 2009.semoga 2010 kite jumpe lagi k.doakan aku slamat sampai.tak lupe juge doakan kejayaan aku di sane.wahhh sgt neves lah saye! ;p

apelah jadi dgn rumah aku ni nanti.jadi rumah bujang siot.4 org lelaki.hahaha.damn cool gile.. ;p

selamat tinggal! kepada yang mahu mnghantar,jumpe di:

KLIA
8mlm-10.30mlm
29 september 2009

harini la tu.agagaga.till then.mahu selesaikan packing neyh.daa~~

Monday, September 28, 2009

untung si cantik dan si kacak

kalau anda cantik dan kacak,anda mmg beruntung.mane x nye,pegi mane shj pasti ade yg memuji.apa yg anda lakukan,pasti diberi perhatian.untung si cantik dan si kacak,dalam percintaan boleh buat byk pilihan.satu pergi,rmai lagi yg menanti.untung si cantik dan si kacak,ramai yang mahu jadi seperti anda..berlumba2 mahu juga cantik dan kacak seperti anda.sedangkan anda,tak perlu buat apa2 pon.itupon orang dah rasa kamu cantik dan kacak.pakailah apa saja,kain pelikat mahupon kain batik,masih boleh kelihatan cantik.ikutlah fesyen ape pon,takkan hilang cantik dan kacak itu.untungnya kamu,dilahirkan sebegitu.dianugerahkan rupa paras yg sempurna.kamulah definisi kecil utk kecantikan dan keindahan.kamu sebahagian daripada sesuatu yang indah.

buatlah apa sahaja,orang tidak menilai kamu.bawa lah kereta macam haram,msti pmandu lain akan cakap: haih naseb baik lawa @ ensem.mudahnya kamu memujuk orang,kerana mereka 'cair' melihat rupa paras kamu.senangnya kamu memikat,hanya dengan senyuman,semua sudah gila kan kamu.

kamu cantik.kamu kacak.tu tak bermakna kamu boleh buat apa saja.perilaku tetap perlu dijaga.manusia mungkin menilai sesama sendiri berdasarkan rupa,tapi di mata Allah,kita semua adalah sama.kalaupon kamu definisi bidadari di dunia skalipon,tidak ada guna jika tidak patuh pada Allah,tidak berperikemanusiaan,tidak mmpunyai hati perut,berhasad dengki,bersifat buruk ataupon tidak mnghormati sesama manusia.bukan kerana kamu cantik,bukan kerana kamu kacak,bermakna semua sukakan kamu.kan tidak sedap didengar kalau orang berkata: harap saja muke yang cantik.harap saja mukanya kacak.tapi perangai macam setan.haih.sedeyh kan?

jadi si cantik dan si kacak.bersyukurlah.dan jagalah perilaku kamu.aku smemangnya mncemburui kalian,kerana aku tidak seperti kalian.tapi,janganlah terlalu bongkak dengan kecantikan kamu.tidak bermakna aku ini hodoh,maka aku tidak layak utk kamu atau utk sesiapa.usah menilai siapa layak utk siapa,itu bukan kerja kamu.usahlah kamu mnggunakan kelebihan kamu utk mnjatuhkan org.jika anda sebegitu orgnya,kecantikan dan kekacakkan kamu itu,pudar.hilanglah serinya.percayalah.

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oh si kacak saya.mana kamu? bila nak bertemu?

p/s: 1 more day for my flight to egypt.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

in LOVE!

guy: can i ask u smthing?
me: yahh.sure..what is it?
guy: erm..are you......available?
me: er..aa..available? for what?
guy: available as in........single...and available..?
me: ouh..erm.hahaha.oke,funny u ask.obviously! haha..ermm..but why..
guy: ouh.would u be my girlfriend?

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how can i ever say no...ur so handsome,charming,polite..everything that i ever wanted in a man..i never thought i could love anyone after wat had just happen,but now,i can see myself with u..thanxx syg.. :)

i like it when we're together.when u hold my hand..i couldn't be happier when ur by my side..thxx 4 spending time with me,doing things i've never done before..ur so cooollllll...and i love you so much!!!!!



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AKU MIMPI DIA PACAR AKU.BAPAK BEST WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! tapi tu la.mmpi jer.uhuk.deep jgn jeles eh.hahahahaha! ;p

Friday, September 25, 2009

cerita

one day while shopping with bestfren:

"na,amik la kasut ni..cantek.."
try try..tgk..belek.pusing..jln2 sket..OK!
....
nmpk kasut lain,pakai....
" na..tak sesuai la kasut tu.mcm perempuan sgt "

-_-"

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one day in college:

" weh salu kan ko pgg je brg2 ko.asal ko bwk beg plak ni? cm pompuan dow! "

-_-"

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one day at home:

i was bored.played with my facebook n found an interesting quiz,so i decided to give it a try..
title of quiz: ARE YOU A GUY OR GIRL.

guess what ?

i'm GAY!

LOL!

hence all the comment about being girly.haha.

p/s: UGLY TRUTH BEST! laki mmg cam palat,mahu pretty faces saja.haha.tetibe aku rase cam tanak kawen sebab laki kan cepat berubah? dat facts scares the hell out of me.HOHO.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

i say...


u see.i hav no intention if being racist at all..but people,the community,is like,pushing me towards becoming one! oke2 sebelom aku dtahan,dimaki or watsoever,AKU TAK RACIST LA! 1Malaysia! yeahhh!! haha..

ok.i was queing in line at an atm machine in alamanda.in front of me,was 4 african guys(i think they're african..or jamaican...or or yeah or watever la)..3 of them are together,but 1 of them mcm not in d geng la.n so,i dunno how they even QUE mennnn!! kjap dok lam barik,kjap kua,pastu msk blk,im like hey wad de fish LOL.n the 3 guys,they're acting like oversized childrens.like,seriously.playing tags,running all over the place,cannot sit still..ugghhh annoyingnyeeee!!~~

ouh btw,i felt guilty eating baskin robbins today.people look at me as if it is still in ramadhan and im so sinful for eating in d public.LOL.

tujuan aku ke putrajaya? tiade.jalan2 cari pacar agk nye ;p












* click at pictures for larger view


ouh and for d pictures...maaf lah tiade model.its fun to b by urself for quite a while. ;)

Monday, September 21, 2009

counting..

i've been single for almost 4 months.
felt REALLY single for 4 days.
going to egypt in 8 more friggin days.
felt guilty for an hour.
drooling over farid kamil since forever.!!

HAHAHAHAHA!

i never knew time could pass by so fast,especially when ur going into some really new environment soon.i mean,REAL SOON..wow everything felt so real lately huh? hehe.ouh well.im kinda excited for egypt.its not about the egypt thing really,but its the course im taking..i've been wanting to do medic so baddd n know i got the chance n i PROMISE myself to study hard..im not going to play around like wat i've done in skool n in college back on those days.i know i can do better than that..the fact that my dad n the whole family had sacrifice much for me,n the money they're paying for me to do dis course is A LOT.i dun want to let them down..naah.

OMG,8 days left.i wud really really reallyyyy love to do this things before i fly:

- watch THE UGLY TRUTH
- photoshoot wit the people dat i love.
- drive n drive n drive until i got tired of it.
- eat the deliciously malaysian cooking, the Chilli's mashed potatoes, n also Kenny Roagers!
- attend aimi's sister wedding.haha.
- karaoke for d last time!!!

n also,spent quality time with family.haha.luckily i didn't go working or watsoever duirng my holidays..i think i've already spent a whole lot of time with them..i know they'd miss me.haha!

ouh,smpat tak cari pacar baru? boleh uat telemovie ni,8 hari mencari cinta.hahahahahahahahahahaha

oke dah merepek.bye. ;p

Saturday, September 19, 2009

barangkali...

bercinta dgn budak sekolah ni best kotttt!!! atau sebab minah tu putih melepak.comel gile.free hair.segala nya yg kontra jika mahu dibandingkan dengan aku..heh.dan senang je ckp i love u ni..ckp ngn sape2 pon boleh..takpe,aku ngan kau kan dah takde pape lagi.barangkali ini post trakhir yg sebut pasal perbuatan kau yg kau rase btol tu kottt...takpe lah,aku ni bkn ade hati dan perasaan pon.KAN KAN?

i am sorry, ku tak akan love you lagi!

sudah! kemas rumah yok! :D:D:D *raya mood*

semalam

i just had a long and rough day yesterday and i don't need any sarcasm or annoyance. -_-"

i only had a two hours of sleep yesterday,then hav to get up early coz had a plan to go to wangsa melawati to pick up my baju raya..janji nk smpai sane around 10.30..so,went to pick up lily 1st at her house..i notice smthing is wrong with the car..tot it was just the alignment..but then,i felt really weird.n i heard noises.COMING FROM THE CAR.and at dat time we are out from tol already..i had a bad feeling so i stopped d car at d side of d road.TAYAR PANCIT.cam sial..then lily called his dad..he told us to use d emergency phone.heh.luckily i stopped my car not dat far from the phone..but still,have to menapak..got many honking.grrr...even from the fireman! gile! klo ko nk tlg xpe gak!!! lpas hon lambai2 plak.igt aku buat show ke tepi highway tu? *emo* oke then the plus people come..1 malay n 1 indian.pakcik malay was being nice,but the pakcik indian was not.membebel jek..his not the one who had to changed the tire pon,dat pakcik malay yg buat.but he's acting like he's such a boss.mcm ttuuutttt...~ saje je mahu mnimbulkn prasaan racist dlm diri aku.huh..oke then da settled,drove to wangsa.and and,i've already give ALL of his stuff back.lily yg tlg bgi snanye.heh.thx lily.hee..so now,me n him,TOTALLY OVER.hopefully..........i dun want to say much cuz im afraid of wat might happend in d future wud backfire me,but,for now,lets just pretend dat me n him never knew each other pon..hrmm...

after dat went to klcc..punye lah mamai,smpai lupe kt mne park kete.heh.after dat took the train n went to masjid jamek,shopping tudung.hee..it started raining.hoho.around 5 we headed back to klcc..ouh,then my craving for chili's mashed potato xdpt dtunaikan.sob2.rmai gile nk mampos beratur kt situ.huh..sokey,during raya i'll come again!! huhuh..so break-fasting at spice of india ke ape tah..sdap ;)..hrmm i was actually looking for blue blouse for the egypt departure but can't find any dat can b considered as pretty.sume HODOH.huhuhu...dat type of blue is seriously not my colour..it won't suit me.. -_-" after break-fasting,went for laz shopping n then head home..wanna know how much is the price for the parking ticket? RM25.50! hahaha! amekk kauuu...!! ouh then mse nk kua parking tu,tibe2 xjmpe tiket parking tu! -_-" we're both mamai n mcm tercarik2 everyweher for it...siap slongkar beg dgn klam kabutnye sbb tkut kete blkg mrh..hahah!

d lesson is,have a good night sleep before a big event.haha.it can prevent u from being silly.

ouh jumpe mamat rasta yg kacak itu di klcc.dia sudah kenal saye slepas saye mng add dia di myspace.dia pndg dan senyum.waaaaaahhhhhh sgt comeeeelllll!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D he really made my day.after a long n rough day,i had a reason to smile..ngehehehe...

so.raya is coming people! and so does me going to egypt..takot wehhh! da lme x stdy,berkarat otak.haha..hopefully everythings gonna be fine..im having my raya in bangi as usual,dtg lah if u guys r free..hee..ouhhh and if u guys love me dat much,do send me to KLIA! ;p i wud really appreciate it people..my flight is on the 29th September 2009, 11pm! but i have to be there at 8pm..so dtg lah,balik awal pon xpe..it wud b such an honour to see some of d familiar faces b4 i have to take off n God knows when we'll ever gonna meet again right?? ;)

dats it for now.ouh pesanan terakhir:

SELAMAT HAR RAYA AIDILFITRI & MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!

later~~  ;)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

hari ini

misscommunication.

contoh mudah.KES SEBENAR.

aku bgtau madi mahu berjumpa di kl sentral.lpas tu mahu bgrk bersama2 ke klcc.tibe2,madi ckp dia da kt klcc.aku igt aku perlu ke klcc juge,maka aku pon ambil lrt ke klcc.tibe2 madi ckp dia otw ke kl sentral.wad de fish.aku mamai tahap ape ni?? rupe2 nye aku salah paham.aku patut stay sahaje di kl sentral.apelah cik paz...lantas kami mngambil kputusan mmbawe haluan masing2 dan bjumpa di green box later on.ouh,so much for mahu bergerak bersame2 supaye tidak bosan.haih.naseb ade syaz time kt klcc.dia byk ckp.ilang ngntok aku.haha.

** mase kt lrt,aku taktau kenape.ade satu mase,aku nmpk kl sentral yg tgh sibuk semacam tu jadi lengang..tibe2 imej aku dan dia bputar kmbali.sape tau,tibe2 ade air bertakung dlm mata aku..memandangkan aku 2jam lebey je tdo mlm sblom tu,aku aggp itu suma mimpi..lelaki itu mimpi..memori itu mimpi..kebahagiaan itu mimpi..kemesraan itu mimpi..kejadian itu mimpi..senyuman itu mimpi..tangisan itu mimpi..

mungkin selama ni memang aku dalam mimpi.

aku terfikir,adakah aku masih dalam mimpi?

terima kasih kawan2.kerana menceriakan hari ini.

Monday, September 14, 2009

kenape aku sayang kau?

macam ni.hati aku,susah nk rase cinta.lepas dua tahun single sbb sakit akibat cinta,aku buat kputusan utk trima seseorg dlm ati aku.SUPRISINGLY,aku kene tipu.kaw2 kene tipu.tapi aku beruntung..sbb saat aku tgh bersedih sgt2,ko dtg dlm idop aku..wpon mule2 aku ta penah ter pk nk jd kan ko boyfren aku..tpi,aku trime ko jadi bf aku sbb,aku PERCAYA KO BOLEH BUAT AKU HEPY.

aku tak salah.aku memang hepy.ko bagi aku sume bnda yg aku nk sbg seorg kekasih.aku bahagia sgt,and saat tu,aku dah mule terima kau dalam ati aku.tapi tibe2,kau brubah..mungkin kau pnat dgn jadual praktikal kau..takpe..aku tak pnah mrungut..ko marah aku,ko uat aku sakit ati,tapi aku tetap setia dgn ko.sbb aku percaye,ni sume masalah kecil.pasti aku dgn ko,akan baek2 jugak kn..aku berdoa,agar sume berjalan dgn lancar hari demi hari.aku tak kesah papepon..aku sanggup bkejar2 dari kolej after class sume,sbb nk jumpe ko.sbb itu yg buat aku hepy..ya,mmg pernah kite gadow,smpai aku mnanges sorg2 dari stesyen lrt tu smpai stsyen sentul sbb time tu aku kt kolej.smpai je sentul,cpat2 aku tarik nafas,AND PRETEND dat everything is okay..sbb aku nk percaya,yang kita akan okay.bile bdak2 blik aku tnye pon,aku ckp best gileee jumpe kau tadi..aku tanak org nmpk aku sdeyh sbb kau.sbb aku tanak dak2 blik aku kutuk2 kau..aku taknak..

mungkin mmg salah aku sume ni,sbb aku sayang sgt kt kau.knape? sbb kau punca kegembiraan aku,kau punca kesedihan aku,kau punca aku jadi tak tentu arah, dan kau jugak punca aku percaya yang dalam dunia ni memang ada cinta untuk aku.aku dah mula percaya.sebab KAU..aku terlalu bahagia dgn kau,sampaikan aku dah buat keputusan utk kenalkan kau dgn keluarga aku..mase tu,arwah mama yg cadangkan aku adekan bday party tahun ni..dan aku mmg da bercadang nk knal kan kau dgn mama pada hari tu.mungkin dah bukan nasib aku,sbb sblom smpai nye tarikh tu,kau mintak putus dgn aku..n tak lama lepas tu,mama pulak pergi bertemu Illahi..mase aku tgh bersedih akibat aku hilang engkau,aku kne trime lagi satu kesedihan yg sgt2 berat buat aku.aku mmg rapat ngn arwah mama.dia je la kaum perempuan dalam rumah ni selain aku.dia lah teman gosip aku,dia kamus aku,dia buku teks aku,dia cikgu aku,dia MAMA aku..Tuhan ambik sume tu dari aku..takpe,aku redha dengan pemergian dia..mama pergi,dan x mungkin balik semula..tapi kau,kau ada..dan hari-hari aku tak putus berdoa semoga pintu ati kau terbuka kembali utk terima aku..HARI-HARI..sbb nya,aku sayangkan kau.ko mcm separuh dari idop aku..mama lagi separuh..aku dah hilang separuh tu,dan aku tak mampu utk ilang lagi separuh..

kau igt x dulu,aku pernah mintak kau bagi aku music box? kau tunaikan permintaan bodoh aku tu..nak tau x knapa aku suke music box?? sbb,lagu dia x akan berakhir..kalaupon ia berakhir,kau cuma perlu putar skru dan lagu kembali dimainkan.macam tu jugak aku harap hubungan aku dgn kau.andai kata hati kau dah tak berlagu utk aku,aku berharap aku berjaya putarkan kembali lagu tu dalam ati kau.lepas kau bagi music box tu,hari2 aku dgr..x percaya,tnye lah budak2 bilik aku..ko tnye lah dorg btape sayangnye aku kat kau.ari2 aku peluk teddy bear yg ko kasik..aku cium2 smpai da nk itam binatang tu..padahal ko baru jek kasik aku..ya Allah.macamane aku boleh bgitu sayangkan kau,spenuh ati aku,Tuhan lagi tau..ko tau mase aku ajak ko dtg dinner last sem aku tu? aku ajak kau,sbb aku nk hepy2 dgn kau.event tu sesuatu yg mnggembirakan aku.aku nk kongsi dgn kau.sebab tu aku beriye2 sgt nk kau dtg.

kenapa aku sayang kau? sebab aku dapat terime semua baik buruk kau.sebab aku rase,jiwa aku terlalu kuat utk kau..kau tau semua tu kan? ko salu tanye aku,kenapa aku selalu bagi adiah kat kau..sebab,bila aku tgk bnda tu,aku trigt kt kau.maka,aku beli,dan aku adiahkan utk kau.aku pergi mana2 pon,kau tetap dlm kepala aku.smpaikan,daripada aku keluar syoping knon2 utk diri sendiri,akhirnya aku akan belikan smthing utk kau.sbb,kau sntiase dalam igtn aku..SENTIASA.dan aku rasa x salah kalau aku belikan kau adiah tu..bukan hadiah yg aku bagi tu bukti cinta aku pada kau,tapi ia adalah medium yg mnjadi pnyampai kepada kau sbg mmberitahu yg,kau dalam ingatan aku.mase aku tjumpa bnda tu,aku trigt kt ko,sbb tu aku bgi kt kau..aku mmg mcm tu orangnya.tak pernah aku ade niat lain selain itu.

selepas kau pergi,aku tak pernah lupa kan kau.jujur,aku tak boleh keluarkan kau dari hati aku..perasaan aku terlalu mndalam utk kau,dan permintaan kau utk pergi dari idop aku,bgi aku sesuatu yg sukar utk aku trima..namun,aku turutkan saja..sebab apa? sebab aku sayangkan kau.kau cakap,kalo aku sayangkan kau,aku sanggup buat apa saja utk kebahagiaan kau..dan aku biarkan itu berlaku,walaupon aku yg sakit.aku yg terseksa..sepanjang itu,kau sering mengadu..kau kata kau sunyi..aku sering mnemani kau..bila tiada sapa yg ingin mnolong kau,aku sanggup tolong..bila tiada siapa yg melayan kau,aku tak pernah tak ada utk kau.tidak ada niat lain aku buat semua tu.aku cuma mahu kau bahagia.aku cuma mahu,kau rasa kau masih ada aku.bermakna,andai kata sluruh dunia pon mmbenci kau,kau tetap ada aku.aku mahu kau rasa begitu.walaupon hanya sbagai kawan..ya..salah aku kerana sering mncemburui kau..aku sering mncurigai kau..dan aku benci,bila kau buka pintu hati kau utk org lain tapi bukan aku.salah aku..salah aku sebab aku syangkan kau..selama kite sudah berpisah,aku rasa kau ada,tapi kau jauh..dan semakin hari,kau semakin mnjauhkan diri dari aku..mungkin itu hanya perasaan aku.tapi,perasaan tak pernah berbohong..kan?

aku dan kau,sering bergaduh kerana sbb2 kecil slps itu.sampaikan aku rasa,aku dan kau tidak boleh utk berkawan.aku sudah mngambil keputusan utk tidak mngendahkan kau.tapi,aku lemah.sebab,aku sayangkan kau.knapa aku sygkn kau? sbb,aku sedar tanpa kau,aku kosong.KOSONG..jadi,bile kau pujuk hati ini utk terima kau utk berkawan kmbali..aku terima..sbb,aku sygkan kau..takde sape taw ape aku rase lepas aku putus dgn kau.diorg tau,aku sedih.tapi prasaan aku lebih dari sedih.lebih dari tu.takde perkataan boleh gmbrkn kesedihan aku..tapi,aku tak tnjuk sedih aku sangat.lagi2 kat rumah.sebab aku tau,abah pon tgh sedih..aku tanak dia terlalu sedih,jadi aku sering cuba utk hiburkan hati dia.tapi aku lemah.aku tak mampu sebenarnya.aku perlukan sokongan kau.dan,aku cuba menjalin kmbali hubungan kita dulu..aku cuba utk putarkan kembali lagu hati kau thadap aku.tapi,kau enggan.kau tolak.kau berikan alasan2 kau..aku sedih.amat2 sedih.tapi aku terima keputusan kau.aku hormati keputusan tu semua.sampaikan tiba2,kau kata kau jatuh cinta lagi.dan pada saat yg sama,seluruh tubuh aku trus mnggeletar.aku tak sangka akan khilangan kau sebegini cepat.sdangkan kau baru shj mnolak cinta aku atas alasan kau ingin tumpukan perhatian pada sesuatu.aku rasa aku bodoh kerana percaya.kau tipu aku lagi.serta merta aku tahu dan aku sedar,jiwa aku kini benar2 sudah KOSONG.dan tak mungkin aku akan percayakan cinta lagi,seperti mana aku telah bgi kpercayaan itu utk kau.aku sedih sbb itu.aku taktau apa akan terjadi pada masa akan dtg,tpi kan sedih jika andai ade seseorg yg benar2 cintakan aku,tapi aku takdpt nk percayakannya kerana apa yg tlah trjadi antara aku dgn kau? hancur berkecai hati aku.org yg kau pernah sayang sudah bertunang.org yg aku pernah syg,dah kawen pon.jgn lah nk ckp yg kau tu lagi pernah rase sedih yg lgi hebat dari ape yg aku rase..tak mungkin.kau tau,tak mungkin.

skarang.susah utk aku bgi lagi kpercayaan aku.cinta aku.setia aku.tidak utk masa terdekat.kau ckp dulu,kau sayang aku..tiba2 kau tawar hati pada aku? maknanya,dengan siapa2 pon,itu akan terjadi lagi.aku dah serik.seriously.salah aku,sbb berharap kau yg trakhir utk aku.salah aku,sebab masih mngharap pada hati kau yg dah tiada lagi.salah aku,kerana cuba mainkan lagu hati kau sedangkan skru itu sudah lama patah.salah aku,sebab aku terlalu beremosi bila aku dgn kau.salah aku,aku terlalu selesa dengan kau.salah aku,aku bagi hati aku pada kau.dan salah aku,sebab aku sayangkan kau.

aku mintak maaf aku maki hamun kau.aku panggil kau macam2.aku nak kau benci aku.macamane aku sebenarnya nak aku sendiri benci kat kau.

kenapa aku masih sayangkan kau?

Saturday, September 12, 2009

tag by Nia kesayangan ;)

1) Nama timangan :-
fazlina, faz, fuzzy, cik paz, nina, lipaz (OMG lame xdgr ;p)

2) Anda seorang yang :-
hensem kacak dan bergaya. boleh? ;p

3) Lagu kesukaan :-
ehee..byk..lagi2 yg berkaitan dgn idop.

4) Food kesukaan anda :-
gua kuat mkn beb.gua bedal je sume.hahahahahah

5) Sikap yang membuatkan anda stress :-
bodoh sombong, backstabbers, liars, gedik tak bertempat, annoying, org yg suke bagi alasan, omg bpk byk.hahaha.

6) Benda yang mesti ada dalam bag :-
wallet, kunci umah, handphone, hand sanitizer, tissues.

7) Warna kesukaan anda :-
purple, white, green, blue.

8) Kali terakhir anda menangis dan mengapa :-
ni yg aku mls ni.hahaha.yesterday kot..memories hit me.im missing a few people,dats all.
9) Tag 6 rakan anda :-
rangga, chi mei, panpan, lily, afieqah izzati, SUME YG BACE. boleyh? ;p











notes: arini aku buke mkn kfc..aku tgk akk baju belang2 tu steady gile kt cashier,uat kje pade thp klajuan 2cm/jam..barisan da smpai kua2 kdai da.jam dah pukul 7..trainee pon,mcm xtaw nk uat ape je.haih naseb baek trainee..aku ta paham knp sume org perlu memilih arini utk berbuke dgn KFC.pegi la esk ke lusa ke,nk same jugak dgn aku tu..akk blkg aku annoyingly tenung2 muke aku mcm aku ade 3 bijik lubang idong..servis yg LAJU itu mmbolehkn aku mngusha kt kaunter cara2 assembly twister..TAKPE,SABAR..driving home,da la trefik lite kt bangi beranak pinak skang neh..kete sume mcm saje je nk mlmbtkn aku yg tinggal lagi 10 saat je mase utk dlivery KFC ke rumah sblm waktu berbuke tibe..perlu ke,ko BREK SEPENUHNYE utk belok ke kiri tu?? pastu da la kona mngambil mase same dgn pjln kaki..weh weh,lu kt jln bsar neh..kete byk kot kt blkg..ngeeeeeeee....dan akhirnye,aku smpai ke rumah bile azan tepat2 da abes.haihhh..annoyiinggggnyeee ariniiii.....!!

Friday, September 11, 2009

a letter to a long lost friend

dear friend,

i haven't heard from u since ages..how are you? i hope u'r fine.. ;)


OMG it has been a long time dude..i don't even know where to start..n how to start a conversation with u..yah,its awkward now..funny right? looking back at those years,you n i were such close with each other..we're like the bestest of friend..at least i thought u were ;)..i still want to be ur bestfriend tho..i know things has been very different lately between us..and i know we haven't talk for a long time..but its hard for me to accept the fact that u'r now gone from my life..ur not my bestfriend anymmore..in fact,i dun know if we're still frens..u ignored me totally..i understand y u did this,n im not really mad at u.but i just never tot dat it cud be this serious..

i know ur happy with ur gelfren..and i am VERY happy for you,too ;)..u guys are such a cute couple..u know how i support u onto this relationship right..? n u know i wud be happy for u if u think dat u hav really found ur true love..but still,i surely hope u still rmmbr what i've told u before..i dun want bad things to happen again to u..rmmbr ur ex?? n how badly u get when she dumped u?? i don't want to see u at dat state anymore..i hope ur gf right now will never hurt u dat way..neways from wat our frens had told me,u guys seems to be okay..im glad to hear dat..hope u can go through every obstacles wthout getting out of track..n yeah,dun throw ur handphone doww..dats not d right thing to do..u end up wasting money buying new handphone.LOL.

hrmm..i think u have already know dat i wanted to go to egypt,soon..and deep inside me,i really hope dat i would see u before i left..coz i really miss u as a friend..u should tell ur girlfriend dat im not stealing u or anything..i don't want u to be my lover la duhh,i just want u to b my friend..coz,i really miss those old days..rmmbr d day we went outing together n there's 7 guys and im d only girl?? n rmmbr d day when we walked from giant back to college,n the girls get harrased by a stupid wira driver?? hahaha..i rmmbr it clearly..n i rmmbr been given the honour to pour the freezing cold water onto you on ur bday.. i rmmbr ur willingness to accompany me to eat at Wau eventho at dat time ur doing smthing else..and also ur willingness to accompany me to go to the 7E in the nite or at anytime whenever im afraid to walk alone..i rmmbr shouting at u in the exm hall after u play with my tudung n get me pissed off..[ i almost cried ok after dat ] and i rmmbr u buying me kit kat n put it in my bag just to say ur sorry.. :)

i appreciate all the lesson u've told me,directly and indirectly..ur the smart one,u always teach us..i can never beat u in ur score..but smtimes i beat u..haha..but never in chemistry la,ur always good in dat field ;)..OMG its 3years of friendship my friend..3,long years of friendship..it seems like i've known u forever..and i can't bear to lose u like this..with no particular reason..ur my bestfriend dude! we shared almost EVERYTHING together..im not asking for much.im not asking for us to be like how we used to..i just want u to TALK to me..sms me or wat so ever..i only heard bout ur story from our frens..luckily they're still my friends..i hate to lose a fren,especially a good one like YOU.

well dear friend..i hope u n ur gf will always be happy..just,never forget me,eventho we're not like wat we're used to be,but i sincerely can never forget u just like dat.i love you friend.take good care of urself.n i hope u'll suceed in everything u do..which i know you will ;)..make good money after graduating oke? hehe.well.i hav so much to say actually,but the main point has already been stated.


TAKE CARE.

from,
a friend of yours



* unikopians pasti tahu aku cakap pasal sape kan.OBVIOUSLY! ;p *

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

stop

oii cik paz.stop the clumsiness already.haih.

i just spilled a soya bean drink worth rm2 SPLAT to the floor.the WHOLE bag of it..i dunno how it happens but it happened already.but the lesson for now is,don't ask me to do smthing when im doing smthing else.apekejadah la aku ckp ni.uhuk..it means,let me focus on doing only ONE thing and don't ask me to do dis n dat n dat wthout helping AT ALL.giving orders are not helping oke..mentang2 aku da taraf bibik kat uma neh..i even look like a bibik.with messy hair,baggy n worn out clothes..hoho..sangat hodoh kn? pasal tu la i single.ahax!

btw,when does dis clumsiness crap is going to endddd..?? u know bout all the cuts n bruises n burns i've gotten into few days back,yeah im still doing it.tgn dah rupe mcm mangse dera.haih.plus,i dunno how i got them bruises.tau2 tgh basuh tgn japgi,pedihh jer..i think my mind is outer space lately..my whole system is being controlled by emotions.ngee...jgn mngarot la paz,sepak kang. -_-"

and wat is it with referring myself as a 3rd person?? gile ape..gua da tahap kne jmpe shrink da neh -_-"..

oh yeah..i've confessed to smone dat im giving up on him.yeah right.im just saying it though..but i do hope i can get over him..if he doesn't want me anymore,than just let me have the heart to give it to smone new..mayb im just not good enuff for him..or,the other way round.haha.no no.im still in love with him,but i do hope by saying dat im giving up,it wud make me feels a bit distance..

well.eventually im going to leave him anyway.20 more days left people.just,20 more days..

i can say whatever i want but deep inside,only i know how i feels.right?

ouh and,mlampawkah jika aku mintak atos itu dibawa bersama ke mesir?? YES.melampaw! -_-"

Sunday, September 6, 2009

cabaran ramadhan

tajuk skema gile.tau. -_-"

i know i've been posting quite merapu posts few days back.biaselah,jiwe kacau kn.haha..but today,lets share smthing a bit serious.

i never tot dis cud happen..with only 23days left before my departure to egypt,smhow there's rumors saying that the university fee is increasing..for the regular program,from 65k to 175k..gile sial..n for my prog,manchester prog,i haven't got any info bout dat..tapi klo naik 3x gande jgak,then IM DEAD.there's no wayy we can afford the fees..bek aku blaja kt cni jek..kt cyber tu..sialan btol..itupon if i have dat much of money la,which,I DON'T THINK SO..but whatever it is,its still a rumors so,kami sume masih berdoa supaye pluang utk blaja medic tu masih terbuka utk kami.AMIN.

mslhnye im like so ready to become a medical student.im just not ready to go to egypt.hik2.

if egypt gonna cost too much,then im going back to UiTM.bodoh msti aku gelak ngn pntadbiran UitTM sbb aritu poyo2 tolak twrn dia kn.siap anta surat xleh dtg konvo lagi.hahahaha.

eyh.cool2.things r not yet happening faz.chill2..pray for the best. ;)

but whatever it is....im so tired of being the surirumah spnuh mse thingy..sangat penat n aku x suke..i even hav to sacrifice my sleeping time sbb klo aku tido kul 2 cm biase i dun think i can get up on time to prepare sahur. *sigh* n my brothers sume bz keja n usually dorg akn smpai umah tired and all and cume mahu mkn dan tidor saja.no helping hands..grrr..tapi kalo cuti abg aku tlong.n dats why i love weekends ;p

jangan marah tapi kalo yuran btol2 naik i don't think i mind going to uitm.but aku da bazirkn mase satu sem la mknenye *sigh*

feels like beronggeng tomorrow..atos ku da mengaum2 tu.haha. ;p

Saturday, September 5, 2009

motivasi

2 weeks of fasting..i weigh myself.satisfied.smile.

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" wah, ___! nak view webcam! "
" bleh2..faz bkk ah gk webcam.. "
" alaa segan.. "
" ekelehh..camtu ___ xnk bgi faz tgk ___ gk ahh"
" cess bersyarat! oke2"
after a few seconds..
" ehh fazzz da tembam laaaa............"

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" nina ni kalo buke xske mkn nasik "
" yeke..klo x mkn nasik kenape dia mcm berisi je??? "

terima kasih -_-" ..skala penimbang itu mmg tipu..haihh..




[ nina tu name panggilan aku kt rumah. hoho ]

Friday, September 4, 2009

satu pesanan ringkas,tapi padat,dan tepat



oh pacarku,mengapa kau putuskan aku? padahal aku masih sayang kamu.kok kamu pergi meninggalkan
ku?


[ addicted already. can't help it :( ]

Thursday, September 3, 2009

miracle

miracle water.haha.bukan2. ;p

one miracle had occured today.im so so so soooo happy bout it!! :D

my cds which hav been stuck in my cd player in my car,for more than 2 weeks already,tibe2 kua sndri dari player tu! both of them! hahahahahahahahhahaha! trime kasih atos ku kerane memuntahkn cd tu..saye sgt gembire ;p

its not my fault ok..my bro borrowed my car,n he ALWAYS 4got to take out the cd pas dgr..gipon dat day,i've already push the eject button to make sure there's no cd in it n nthing came out..so i put my cd in la! n dats how it happen in d 1st place..2 cd in a player..uhuk..seb da normal! uyeehhh!!~

ouh btw shooping therapy really helps u when ur feeling down dow..tak caye try!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

past,present and future

past-i love u

present-i hate u

future-i'll forget about u

hopefully.. (T_T)

[ currently listening to eamon - fuck it. i don't like d girl's version. they're full of excuses. i HATE excuses ]

brilliant

i forgot about dis song,until a fren post it in facebook,n yah it is soooo cooll to b reminded dat there's such song dat u cud listen to when ur THIS pissed off..

thxx afzan ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I96Vh5NuoJg


fuck it - eamon
see i don't know why
i like you so much
i gave you all,all of my trust
i told u
i loved u
now dats all down the drain
u put me through pain
i wanna let u know how i feel

fuct wat i said
it don't mean shit now
fuct the present might as well throw 'em out
fuct all those kisses they didn't mean jack
fuct you,you hoe
i don't want you back

you thought you could
keep this shit from me yeah
you burned bitch
i heard the story
you played me
you even gave 'em head
now ur asking for me back
its just another act
look elsewhere cuz ur done with me

u question did i care
u could ask anyone
i even said u were my great one
now its over
but i do admit im sad
it hurts real bad
i can't sweat dat cuz i loved a hoe









* sronok jike saye mmpunyai pendirian tetap spt ini.benci adalah BENCI.

** i wonder if life would be easier if i am as HOTT as u wish i'd be.maaf.saye tak hot dan saye tak cool.saye nerdy.