oh mata kanan saya!

semalam sepanjang hari saya ter annoyed dengan diri sendiri. bayangkan, dah tidur 8 jam dah, tapi boleh plak mengantuk dalam kelas. mengantuk tak main2 okay. mengantuk tahap "mental shutdown". taktau lah korang penah rasa tak mengantuk tahap mcm tu,tapi dia mcm,kepala sgt berat and kelopak mata rasa mcm nk tertutup lepas tu somehow apa yg jadi depan mata semua rasa macam mimpi. dia macam tak encode dalam kepala otak betul2.haa itu dia. tak encode. maka nya saya nk ckp yg sejujurnya mmg tak fokus sangat kelas tadi *histo dgn patho pula tu.* pastu ade plakkk lecture tmbhn! haihh anatomy pula. two thumbs up kpd diri sendiri T__T

ke-annoying-an itu bertambah lagi apabila mata kanan tak berhenti-henti nak 'berdenyut'...ssttrreeessss! *sebut gaya gary dlm running man* taktau running man tu apa? ok abaikan :p ha tapi tu lah point dia, mata berdenyut. takde kaitan dgn gary pon. tehehe. disebabkan denyutan tu menimbulkan rasa yg amat tidak selesa, dan petang tu tengah gigih google PBL, tetiba rasa nak google kenapa mata kanan saya berdenyut? hamik kau. rupanya kalau mata kanan yg berdenyut maksud dia lain, kalau kiri lain. lepas tu ade istilah berdenyut, ada istilah kelopak mata bergerak, biji mata bergerak, ekor mata yg bergerak. haha.

so ade satu blog ni, dia kata, kalau biji mata kanan bergerak-gerak = akan menangis dalam bercinta. dah sudah,aku bercinta dgn siapa pulak tau2 nak menangis kan..hihi..pastu baca lah lagi *sebab tak puas ati kan* kalau kelopak mata kanan yg bergerak = beroleh keamanan. tadi sedih ni aman plak..haih..baca lagiiii, ekor mata kanan bergerak-gerak = akan menerima orang jauh! serta merta diri terus berangan " adakah saya akan menerima orang negeri sembilan berdarah A dan berdarah jawa? " HAHA ok tu personal joke. btw, memula cam nk seronok lah kan..sekali bila baca komen2 dekat bwh tu...dia kata org jauh yg dimaksudkan adelah malaikat maut. okay. dah takut dah. dah tak kelakar. -.-

tapi sebenarnya saya sangat lah bukan org yg mempercayai benda2 macam ni..orang kata, superstitious kan..ni orang dulu2 lah ni,suka2 je buat teori diorang sendiri.hahaha..lalu saya jumpalah satu blog ni, finally dia bagi jawapan yg saya puas hati.sebab dia mcm bagi secara teorinya kenapa. heee. katanya, mata bergerak-gerak ini berkait rapat dengan stress, fatigue, kurang tidur dan overdose minum kopi. anxiety/depression juga boleh mengakibatkan kepada masalah mata bergerak-gerak ini. kerisauan yg terlalu tinggi dalan diri kita juga turut menyumbang kepada masalah ini. yey now i got my answer ^___^ mmg sehari sebelum tu pon, minum kopi byk gila..hari sabtu lah. sebab tidur 3 jam je.pastu minum kopi.pergi breakfast minum teh. balik tu topup nescafe lagi..malam tu kepala ting tong. tu yg tidur awal n dapat 8 hours of sleep tu! haha!

tapi tengoklah,dlm kelas tak dpt concentrate jugak. heh. jadinya, penting sbnrnya jaga waktu tidur nih. tak boleh nak neglect2 sangat. kalau stay up sebab study takpelah jugak. ni stay up tak buat benda berfaedah. ish2 paz. >.<

btw, marilah mengucapkan selamat tinggal bulan oktober. selamat datang november. dan ahlan zulhijjah. cewah! :D

ok boleh lah dgr lagu ni sempena hari terakhir bulan oktober. hik3.

sumber mengenai mata tersebut diperolehi dari sini, juga sini, serta sini dan yg terakhirnya di sini. :D

love feels like this.

my sky is full of lighters
my head is filled with poems
my lips is stain with love words
my ear is soothed with the sound of your voice
my heart is now at joy
my eyes can't stop staring
my head keep on spinning
my feet is off the ground

the sky is full with thoughts of you
poems u wrote that makes me smile
love words i utter dedicated to you
your lovely voice that makes me melt
heart is pumping fast, by the presence of you
staring into you as if you're just a picture
the image of you spins in my head
i'm literally flying, i'm happy 'cos of u love :)

image from tumblr

random je ni. tiba2 jiwang pula. ahax.

no. i'm not alone

i am clumsy. i admit it. i can't live a day in the house without accidentally trip while walking, or bump my shoulder to the wall,or kick myself with whatever thing in front of me.

but i have never been this clumsy in many years..................i dropped my phone inside a taxi yesterday.a brand new phone which i just used for a month..i haven't even had the time to copied all my contacts inside it yet..now its gone.

a friend said "satu benda yang kita sayang hilang, InsyaAllah Allah akan beri lagi banyak kebaikan dan benda yang berguna pada kita." insyaAllah.bila aku rasa handphone tu dapat dekatkan hubungan aku dengan kawan-kawan dekat malaysia, and somehow benda tu memang ye, and sekarang benda tu dah hilang. sumpah rasa sedih gila. tapi Allah kan memang suka uji hamba Dia, dan ujian itu tanda Dia sayang kita kan? alhamdulillah. aku terima ujian ni....with Your guidance Allah, i pray that i will never be lost.





and when friends are too busy for you, remember Allah will ALWAYS be there.

padanlah muka.

adilkah aku..
aku cakap aku dah lama suka dia.
memang lama, tapi sepanjang lama tu bukan dia seorang yg aku suka.

adilkah aku..
aku cakap aku betul-betul suka dia.
tapi pada masa aku suka orang lain jugak.

adilkah aku..
aku cakap aku dah cop dia dulu.
padahal aku tak pernah pon bagitahu.
cuma sekadar bagi hint hint gitu.

adilkah aku..
rasionalkah aku..
patutkah aku..

sekarang aku rasa kehilangan..
baru padan muka..
sekarang aku rasa sunyi..
baru sibuk nak cari..
sekarang dah sorang-sorang..
baru sibuk nak claim dia aku punya sorang.

padan lah muka.

dah rasa dia pergi jauh, baru nak cari.
mungkin takde jodoh. aku redha.
tapi aku tak boleh tipu.
sedih tu semestinya ada.
nak nangis pon ada rasa..
tapi nak buat macam mana.

dia dah ada yang punya. :(

and when im feeling down, having my bestfriends by my side will ease the sorrow :')

p/s: maybe its too late for i love you.

reality strikes

and so here i am, mansoura, zhoriff street. 2nd home. :)

as much as i love to wasting time on the internet, on youtube, and on random blogs, all those activites have to be reduced due to classes,and my responsibility as a student. it feels like a burden now being a student, but im pretty sure i'll be missing my student life more than ever when i started to work later.

most of my friends are graduating already, congratulations. envy, yes. and my 6th year seniors who are mostly my age, is on their final year of medical school. much enviness. but hey, im here too. im just 3 years late, and over that 3 years i have not wasted my life, i learned a lot of things, and i did have my scroll of diploma. so yeah, grateful, that's how i should feel. :)

1st day of class was, okay. :) but the environment is kinda different. maybe its just me, or maybe its true, that friends are drifting apart from me. naah. things will get better later. aight? hope so.

everyday waking up in a different bed. now that's a real reality strikes. wake up dear self. ur on ur own now. and u r here on a mission. to become a good doctor. 3 more years, insyaAllah.