secret

ok.i know..i am a secretive person..i dunno whether its a good thing,or a bad thing..but,that's me..
i've been keeping a secret from people..dah x macam secret da pon actually coz quite a lot of people already know about this..still la,im not really being honest and im not telling it from my own mouth..

ok..i have been single,for almost three weeks la jgk..since 23rd may aritu..ahaa.. yes..enol left me.tpi sbb dia,,tah la..bak kate kwn2,itu ayat org nk mintk break jer..ehee.. "not ready of any comitment"..cliche,i know..tapi itulah..hee..da mls nk ckp..i've been giving people chances but they keep turning me down..ta paham la..padahal dlu,aku bkn ske sgt pon kt enol,,i mean mase awl2 dlu..after he told me that he loves me,then i started to learn to create that feeling towards him too..oke jek..btol la org ckp kot,pmpuan lgi sng nk jth cinta.heh..pape jela..n skang ni,i dun think i can love anyone like i loved smone b4..once again kpercayaan tu da ilang..it tooks me 2years dlu utk recover balik,kali ni xtau la lme ke skjp ke..nak ayt lagi cliche x dari aku? aku serah kt jodoh je...hahahahaha..

tpi,enol n i r still frens la,mcm biase..n smtimes i think i rely on him too much..mayb i shud back off a bit eh? but then i need smone to replace him la! ;p bkn tadew dow..tapi da jadik segan nk memulakan bicara..wawawawa ;p ouh plus,knalan baru skang ni mostly adik2 jer..same2 kursus bhs arb..huk2..

now,i secretly miss smone..ehe..tah la..lately asik trigt kt dia jer...mayb dis is wat people called KARMA..pdn la muke aku..heh..i juz dunno wat to do,when u miss smone but there's nothing u can do about it..i want him back in my life,i want him to be my fren like how we used to be..but i know,no matter what happened,we will never b the same again..sedey siot..ish bodoh la aku ni.. :(

i miss my old bestfrens too..aku ta paham la knp gf ko kne kongkong idop ko smpai cmni skali..aku nk gi mesir pon ko xnk lepak ngn aku 4 d laz time ke? :(

i feel lost..

ouh btw, i wud like to take this opportunity to thank all of the people who hav been helping me n my family during arwah's funeral dat day..jaja n faha (kwn ikwan) da tlg mcm byk gileeeee...infinity tenkiu oke..n to all the aunties n uncles,i can't mention every name cuz there's juz too many people dat hav been helping my family dat day..thanx all..n to all my frens yg da bgi support,especially cikien who has been there with me all the way even until now..tenkiu infinity weh..sayang gler kt ko..muah3!! yg x sebut nme tu pon,aku appreciate gile jasa korg..siyes aku x tpu..smhow i felt so happy knowing dat i stll hav many friends who cares 4 me A LOT... ;)

i secretly wish dat he wud be reading this..eventho i know dat,he doesn't online dat much..

till then..tata~