don't just leave me hanging on...

you know, each time i saw u on the streets, i just have to look away for awhile, before i can look back at your face. why? while looking away, these things were on my mind :-

• i hope i look okay
• taking a deep breath. like, deeeeeeeeep breathhhhhhhhh.......
• do i have any zits on my face? if i do, i hope u didn't notice it
• i'm gonna smile at you. *ready for a big smile*
• i hope my face is not showing how much my heart actually jumps when i see you
• let's plan for a nice conversation with you
• i hope i don't do or say anything silly in front of you
• please don't trip. please don't trip. please don't trip. and please don't melt >.<
• i hope you get the best image of me.

yeah. in a split second, that's how things r running inside my head. i just want to appear as perfect as any human being could be. especially when i'm with you.

and after that, even though i didn't  look back at you, i hope YOU look back at me afterwards.

photo source : tumblr

that's how much i'm in love with you. though i know i'll never get your love. :')