ok dr love.cukup -_-"
arini aku mngidam kari ayam..lalu,aku pon ke dapur dan ke fridge dan mngeluarkan ayam.brr brr.terkejut saye melihat seekor ayam yg completely belom dipotong..hoh..nasib baik bulu semua da buang.heh duuuhhh lawak tak jadiiiii okeeeee.... dan mngikut kondisi pisau dan papan pemotong di rumah ini,ouh sangat SANGAT lah praktikal kan kalo nk potong ayam besar2 cmtu kn..hrrmm..tapi aku berjaya! uyeh! tapi aku tgk ayam tu takde rupe ayam sgt la.haha.kalo mak mertua nmpk,mesti aku kene -_-"..tapi pastu housemate aku ckp, " ala,menantu doktor kot..mesti dia maafkan.." haha.boleh tak? cool en?? harap2 mak mertua aku mcm gitu.wahahahaha ;p dia cakap,sebab bile kau doktor,msti takde mase nk blaja masak ni..plus,DOKTOR kot.hello.its a carier yg sgt org look up to kot (ceh bapak poyo).huhu.and i wanna b like them too.tapi en,result mid sem aku kan,trowk T_T..sangat kecewa..aku stdy la jgk utk dpt mrkh sesikit itu..at least up sket from that la..its too low saye sedeyh T_T...sebab tu aku masak kari ayam.hahahahaha.ouh berade di dapur boleh kurgkn stress tau tak? taktau? hah nti cube la yer.ngeeeee :D
*berlatar belakangkan lagu Pacarku - Shaden*
dah nak 7 bulan aku ditinggalkan pacar aku.effect dia,tak ilang lagi kot..its not dat im still in love with him.no,im like,SO over him.tapi what he did mcm unforgettable and unforgivable in a way...bcuz it gaves too much impact on my life okeh..im like too depressed n too miserable after what he did.yelah,things happen for a reason..and come to think of it,we were never meant to b together pon..tapi,still,if he wants me for the reason to break my heart,pttnye dia tak mintak kapel pon dgn aku in a first place..knp kne mintak,lpas a few months dgn sng nye msg " awk.jiwe kite kosong bile dgn awak.kite dah lme nk ckp,cume tgu mase yg seswai je nk bgtau. " ouh mcm f**k..oke tibe2 aku marah.haha.eh tak2..cool2..tapi seriously,klo aku tak kapel ngn dia,aku mungkin akn still baik dgn bestfren dia..yg,snanye suke aku gak. ( sile bace previous entry dlm bulan december 2008 kalau nak tau ) bukan ckp aku nk la kt bestfren dia tu,tpiiiiiiiiiiiiiii if only things happen in a different wayyyyy i'd MIGHT be a little less depress unlike now.org yg tak knal aku pon simply judge cakap aku desperate la hape la..knp tah.ko takut ilang kwn ko ke? lek r weh.kawan je pon.aku pon ade hak nk berkawn jugak..knp korg yg nk tentukan sape aku bleh kwn dgn sape tak boleh? sgt lah annoying -_-" ouh tgk..i've turn into smone else dow skang..i keep pointing fingers at people.blaming people.padahal aku dulu,pasrah je kot -_-"...annnddddd aku nye self esteem juga sudah dperasani semakin lowlowlow..im turning into a different person.OUH TIDAAKKKKKK...haha oke gile freak.dah abaikan.
ouh aku kan mempunyai satu lagi blog dekat fuzzyskuzzy dot wordpad dot com en..tadi mcm bace2 balik post.pastu terjumpe satu post yg sangat emo tapi sangat lah mendescribe dan merungkai byk perkare pasal aku.haha.poyo lagi.here goes:
smtimes there just smthing dat u cud not share wit people close to u.
u don't want ur dad to worried about you..or knowing ur siblings is being sad,too..
u don't want ur best friends sympathy..u don't need ur housemates to know how u feel..or frens giving u the sad look,saying dat they understand how u do.
smtimes we just need a total stranger,so dat they wouldn't give us the symphathethic eyes,the needed hugs,the calming advice and all the things an understanding person cud give u.
i don't want to b understood.
ok dah sekian merepek bersama cik paz.ouh ade org tu followers dia da melebihi aku.ouh sungguh tidak adil.hahaha.bapak dengki ko ni faaazzzzzzz ;p
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